can it be normal or at least ordinary?
Your modes fluctuates with every little single event in your life.
You're so much eager to laugh so that you burst out of laughing from any thing near to funny.
And then the simplest silly thing reminds u of what u really are .. an unhappy person.. as if it reminds u of what u basically are.
And afterwards, they all come back together.. to hit all .. suddenly .. with no warning.
And it hurts every time like the first time.
So what?? Stop smiling? one day of this didn't change, the heart would have been used to despair and no hope would be there left in your blood!!